Outlier:

I didn't have a big problem with PvPers wanting to win and do their usual games, with me trying to fit in where I could. I fully expected to pull my weight.

But I wasn't given the chance for the first few days. Back then, I commented here about how personally offensive some PvPers were, and how they deliberately did things to keep me from getting parts done, to the point where they were damaging the side's chance of winning, more than once. I wasn't imagining it, because they were taunting me by name in battleground chat.

So finally, for two of the battlegrounds, I said screw it, screw the people who don't want me there but want to tell me what to do to help them win, while they are insulting me. And I got those parts done _in_spite_of_ my side.

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I don't think the achievements were really what was standing in the way of PvPing, the last few days. I think it was PvPers' egos and reactionary stance. And I felt the truth in something important, something that I couldn't internalize as a kid who was picked on for being different: Screw the bullies. I'll never be like them, but I shouldn't want to. I can succeed despite them, and not feel sorry if they get hurt as a result of their own actions.

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It would have been a lot easier for everyone involved, and the PvPers would have gotten more honor points and badges for winning, had they been willing to let us all function as team players, demanding and reciprocating cooperation. They might even have learned how to be better players by adapting on the fly.

They missed out.