I've created so many alts, each of which I regret deleting. But most of all, I wish I had kept my real first characters. It's to the point where I'm not really sure what I started playing as (my gut is trying to tell me a gnome mage or a night elf druid, but I honestly couldn't say for certain). I often wondered what I would be like if I never tried anything else--if I had stuck with that little fire mage. What sort of people I would have met, if I would have gone on to raiding in Vanilla, or Burning Crusade, and what Wrath would have been like if I had. I wonder how I would feel about Cataclysm, and if I would be doing the same things I am now. I'm often curious if I would enjoy some aspects of the game more or less, and if maybe I would have been happier.

I think about these things often. Perhaps that's why I'm continually rolling new alts--trying to replace the old ones I deleted, in turn going back to the 'newer' ones I abandoned, creating a vicious cycle I can't really get out of. Or maybe I'm just thinking about it too hard and I'm just an indecisive wreck.

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